I know it’s a sad sad thing to say but it’s true. I have never been in a relationship for longer than a couple of months. Blame it on my immaturity at the time or the disagreements I had with my significant others but at the end I feel that it all came down to the fact that I wasn’t giving 100% of what I should have. Whether it be time, attention, love or affection (oooh I rhymed there HAHA) I just didn’t feel that I could… until now of course.

The night before couldn’t have been more perfect. I had spent the day stressing and prepping for my thesis defense (which went perfectly, I couldn’t be happier) then I had dinner and dessert with friends that I hadn’t spent a lot of time with recently. You picked me up after, and we headed home to hang out. We talked like we always do, about the littlest and silliest things and come midnight, you played the song that we danced to, exactly a year ago from that night. You told me you loved me and we kissed, greeting the day of anniversary perfectly. I didn’t want you to go home that night, I just wanted you to stay with me, locked in our tight tight hug. The only thing that kept me from chaining you to my couch was the fact that I would see you again that night. And again, you didn’t fail to surprise me, like you always do.

22 Prime - The food, the view, YOU.

After a long day filled with errands and a doctor’s visit, I hurried home to get ready for that night. My mom stayed with me as I got ready in my room, beaming at how excited I was for that night. She laughed with me and gave me advice on my outfit, makeup and even chatted about how she couldn’t believe this was happening to me, and how happy she was for me. I even tweeted “Prom ang Peg” because that’s how it felt for me, only SO MUCH BETTER because I really was looking forward to that night, even more than my prom (sorry prom date).

I came down to find you there in my living room, white roses and a gift in hand. I already wanted to just stay home and open our gifts to each other and talk and talk, but I knew we both got ready for a reason. Mom took our pictures and we were off. That letter in the car seat, your second surprise, is staring at me now as I write this entry. I’m hurrying so that I can open it again to read it later.

The place was perfect, the food was excellent, and our waiter, Loren, was the best. Everything that night went perfectly. From our conversations about the past, to our plans for the future, I swear I could’ve just stayed there, across from you, listening to you forever.

Getting home and opening our gifts was another treat for me. I couldn’t believe the things you said in the letter you wrote, and I cried when I opened the gift you gave me. I know you know this, but I have to say it again. Ever since I was younger, I had written a list of all the things I would want my “future boyfriend” to do for me. I had a specific list of little and big things, hoping that one day, someone would be able to check off each and everyone of those things. So far none of the things in that list had ever been checked off… until you came along. I’m happy to say that in our year together, you have already checked off quite a number, and your gift was just a testimony to that.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I love you. And know that my love for you grows with each day that passes, not because of the things you do or the things you say, but because of who you are. We aren’t perfect. I’m not perfect and you’re not perfect, but I’d like to think that being with each other has made us better people, more God centered, loving, caring and thoughtful people. I can say that for me at least, this is the case.

It’s amazing how a year can fly by without you even noticing it. I can honestly say that for this year and the year that has passed. I’m so happy to say also that I couldn’t be happier than how I am now and it only makes me giddy to think that I can be eve HAPPIER in the coming years. All thanks to you, and how we work at our relationship, everyday.

So here’s to more laughs, cries, hellos and goodbyes, and all the wonderful years together.

I love you :)